Kevin_Nova's blog

 I normally wouldn’t make another  post so quick, because even to me , it sounds like I need attention /validation and that im feeling vulnerable/sad or whatever, but i do want to show I am confident that future me will be much better 

And also, thank you guys! It sounds like I’m just saying  these words - but I prefer to thank people through actions anyways, after my improvement is complete ill be able to thank you guys properly  

- that sounds very vague but idk what I’ll do later 

Yesterday, I vented about things I wanted to vent about for the longest time , and was mildly prepared to work on them 

What I didn’t expect was how supportive all you guys were - and now I’m very prepared to work on them and to fully resolve those issues 

I was very low on sleep yesterday too, but that was part of a continuing cycle of binge eating  sleep little and repeat and that cycle is something I need to wreck

Right now, I’m being the main character of a movie just after the -“call to action” or catalyst

And oh I need that redemption arc bad, which is what I’m working on 😂  

I really hope i don’t have blind faith in myself and that I’m actually working on some good ways to fix and improve myself to the point where I reach perfection, or at least my ideal self. 

The guy I want is to be that hunky guy that (cliche incoming) 

That lights up the room , 

and makes everyone feel safe/confident and want to fight me, and a strong conversationalist. 

But I do have an excessive amount of confidence and desire to change so I can be my ideal self - 

And damn it- I will fix myself and reach that highest level by the end of this year! Or beginning of next year ! 

By putting on a timeline I’m not adding unneeded pressure but really trying to make each day count 😃 

Thank you for taking the time to read this, i am grateful for all of you !

Please don't think the following is me being too hard on myself - by writing this down I think I will be more motivated to address these issues 

• Achieved my goal weight- but with more fat than I would like- I need to cut that fat down before regrowing with muscle but that shouldnt take as long
• My desire to wrestle has now gone down signficantly, mostly because I overindulged myself during the summer, so am going to be reducing my MF intake
• Wrestling for me  has become more of a sport than a kink, and its unlocked too much competitiveness for me so I'm going to dial it back
• It's the guys that turn me on, not wrestling itself, which I have discovered, but I love to wrestle most guys for competition
• Kinky wrestling has replaced my personality so I need to refocus on some other hobbies I have- for good conversation off the mats 
• I have been overindulging myself this whole summer, in every way I could, and now its disrupting my sleep and my general discipline
• I am tired all the time now ( because my recovery practices and fuelling is the worst) - and want the day to pass by quickly so i can spend more time doing nothing- instead of being excited for the day like I normally am 
• I'm great at making connections, bad at maintaining them- cause I end up having nothing interesting to say, thus ruining my bonds with others 
• I really need to lock in for my grad program- and I keep distracting myself with hot wrestlers

But, all of these are fixable!  

The next few months will be stressful and busy, so hopefully I can be on MF less to lock in IRL, but that's probably not happening

I can change and I will always, always improve! I can always adapt to my circumstances and remove bad habits. 

Because by Dec 31 2025, I will be fixed and every part of me will have good  improvement , and by Feb 2026, I will return to being Kevin Nova!

*hopefully some pics coming soon*

What's up guys,

I hope you all are recovered from Wrestlefest Canada. I mostly am, except for my ankle, which is refusing to cooperate fully. Ugh, I need an instant healing potion or a supreme healing potion something. Or even one of those cheap potion of healings will be better. I should be back exercising again and sweating out all the chips and snacks I ate- but I have more at home. I only brought like 60% of it with me. I shouldn't have done that, because now that I'm not exercising, I've gained some weight back. I can't be walking around with a dad bod at this age! The responsibility of dad jokes would be too much!

I do wanna say I reached 50 opponents, after years of hard work and luckiness. It's been a long road to get there, so I'm half a centurion. Maybe I'm a cent. a Urion just sounds too close to urine. Anyways, as a cent, I just wanted to say how lucky I am to have attended two Wrestlefests, and planning on going to the NYC one next year. Maybe I can get 50 more opponents in 1 year, or is that too ambitious? My ankle just twitched, so it's probably warning me not to go too much too fast. But that's me! I need all the hotties I can get, and they cum in different sizes ;).

And (almost) no matter what size, I’m happy to take you on. I appreciate guys my own size especially if they’re untrained. If they’re trained, at most I’ll be fighting a blue belt, cause at least then I can kind of sort of put up a fight. I really hate losing, but if it’s earned, I’m ok with it. And plus with each loss I learn something, even though I’d rather succeed and keep learning new moves.

But I can’t resist picking fights with guys that can destroy me. So I’ll probably pick out opponents who outweigh me and make me look tiny in comparison. Look at the size difference of some of my opponents!! Please do… they’re absolutely big guys! Definitely recommend them!

Always up for a rough competitive match, unless I’ve worked myself too hard. And if I’m sweating too hard and trying to catch my breath AND trying to fight you, you have my permission to knock me out, sit on me, or restrain me in some way. Don’t worry, I won’t be offended.

Anyways, this wrestlefest Canada was the best one I’d been to in my long wrestling journey, so I’m thankful I got to meet a bunch of you guys that I’ve talked to for ages, a bunch of you guys that are totally out of my league, and a bunch of you guys that push me to my physical and social limits. With wrestlefest, the key word for me has been to wrestle, but next time I wanna get the fest part more.
Going out to a club (even if it’s the winter - I’m Canadian so it’s fine)，staying up all night (please I need 10 hrs of sleep), eating at food trucks or decently bougie restaurants( someone tell me the names and functions of all the forks and spoons), doing an escape room together (I promise I am capable of logic I’m just dumb), doing touristy things (how do you feel about quickly walking down the streets to the hotel to wrestle), taking lots of pics (my pics aren’t great), and to the Empire State Building (isn’t the CN tower taller?) and talking all night about anythint(let’s vibe until I fall asleep- preferably in your arms)
All these things should be on my list too.

I already got pretty Good at being social, talked and got choked at the Friday night social. ( the two were not related I promise). The convo came out nice and easy, even with all the hotties. Go me!

Hopefully next time I’ll be the life of the party, or at least a life of the party! I wanna be the guy that can talk about anything, and the guy that can make any situation entertaining, and the guy that can take on any opponent. I’ll admit I’m a gym rat right now, and spend most of my energy on my physical performance. But I have started exploring easier hobbies. Let’s get my nerd transformation going, already got the glasses part down.

Gonna upgrade my exercises and health routines once my ankles feeling better, and by wrestlefest NYC im gonna be ready to rack guys my own size and bigger. There’s at least a few US daddies and hunks I have to take on.

Ok, let’s get me going on the road to being unsubmittable, undefeated and universally liked! (I will go to space to make new friends if I have to)

Have you ever been pinned down and rolled up completely for most of the match? Trying in vain to use whatever muscle and strength you have to get up, only to fall back down, helpless? Against the relentless heel, who is as good as keeping you under control as he is totally erotically controlling you with his tongue and hands, there's little you can do. Sudden bursts of strength are quickly dispelled by his slow and sensuous licks, and when you do escape, he only finds another way to get on your back, or snake an arm around your throat and drag you back down. The little fresh air you get is quickly replaced by the scent of his sweaty and musky bulge and pits, as he grinds it on your face. His strong legs squeeze so tightly around your head and waist it feels like youre being crushed by a trash compactor. You're drained of strength as more time goes, on, your will to fight slowly eroding, with the already strong desire building up even further. Until you beg, beg, beg for mercy.... and finally he lets you go. With the heavy pounding in your head, and the feeling of his thighs still firmly nestled in your ribs, and the overall post-match exhaustion settling in like its had a 12 hr shift, the bed(drenched with sweat), has never felt more comfortable.

So, that was me maybe a week ago. And the worst part was, I could have kept going too, but he got hungry. And also the cut on one of his hands prevented him from going all out, which, competitively speaking, is like absolutely whaling on a bigger guy for like ten minutes, and then just getting KTFO with one hit with his weaker hand.

It'd be nice to not have to nearly all the time. Oh, "sorry, I meant learn." Yeah, you'd think that it's always fun for a student,( who already spends 90% of his time learning) to learn new things. Competitive submission is still really fun though. That feeling of getting someone to tap out? Especially if he's bigger? STUNNNNING. Ahh who cares if he "let's you get into a good position". But hey, I already have beat on a few people. You can actually ask them, but I mean, I'm not putting their names in this post. ask me yourself ;)

Wrestling is a sport and a kink and a hobby to me. It's like a good 3 in 1 shampoo, except I'm told that 3 in 1 shampoo isn't that good for your hair. Meh, who cares, my hair grows quick and long, and stands up straight until it gets long enough, or wet. It's very pullable too ;), as a lot of you may know. Otherwise, I'm naturally smooth, only hairy in the best places. And that really helps me, because as you may have noticed, I predominantly wrestle muscle daddies. Recently, I've been able to wrestle some super hot guys closer to my own age, but when you're a just barely able to legally drink in the US and in Ottawa (please come here so I can fight you ), you don't have many choices. As well, even though I do have recorded videos out, thanks Feroce, dad canwrestle and marcwrestler , they all show me being squeezed and stretched and trapped until, I tap, beg and moan. Normally, it's all at the same time. So, not an ideal way to establish my reputation. But oh man, I'm so turned on all the way through, so when it's erotic, I don't mind as much.

But on the sport side, I absolutely mind!! I've always been the middle ground as a full on jock and a full on nerd. I'm not bad at physical stuff, I'm just not great. And for being a full on nerd, I don't have the precious intellect I need, so I try and build on strengths and exrcise, and durability. That is actually easier than training myself to be smarter and retain information better, since I already have school material to remember. Technique and I are more like second cousins once removed meeting together again at a 50th family reunion in your typical sitcom setting. I have learned, some moves, but not being able to practice as much is a problem because I can't think in time what to do or escape on the mats, you know. From the outside, wrestling looks slower and I usually think I could react in time and not get trapped. But it turns out, trying to escape when someone has their weight on you or their arm around your neck is pretty difficult. Gee, Who knew, right??
So, I'm still trying to use strength more, which isn't the most efficient way. However, I have picked up on a few things, and have been taight a few things. It's the curse of not being able to wrestle as much, so I don't get to practice as much, so I forget things. And then on the mats, I get slammed and twisted and trapped. Back again to square one XD. And also, everyone's bigger than me! why are they all taller than me? (genetics and a few other reasons obvi)
While it is frustrating, I can say that I'd still prefer losing to no wrestling, because in losing, I get to see where to improve, and hopefully not forget them, and to try out new things, which you know, is life. If variety is the spice of life, then the variety of ways I lose may be overseasoning. But when I can get submissions, it makes it more satisfying. And also, wrestling makes it easy to drop a line to people.
I am objectively mediocre looking, maybe kinda plain looking on the best day, but when I smile, I can kinda think maybe I'm a little cute. Cause I mean, I've been blessed to have talked to and still remain friends with (and future opponents) dozens of gorgeous wrestlers on here. Why these beautiful guys (in personality and in looks and in MUSCLE) are intersted in me, logically there's a reason, right? I've never had confidence issues, just the misfortune of not looking that great. But self-improvement is always pretty sexy, especially in the long run. I'm a Work in progress and I'll always eb a work in progress. Because when perfection is the goal, I'll always fall short. But that doesn't mean I can't enjoy it and look at my progress. A year and a bit ago, I was a faceless profile who didn't know how to lock up. Now, I can mostly remember how to lock up. and I have a face pic of me too. Progress!!

And in terms of kink wise, umm, I have so many more sensitive spots than I thought. Ive been paraluzed with pleasure so many times, and I know this is just the tip of the iceberg. I'm a loud moaner and I squeal a lot, but that's how intensely affected I am by your hands and tongue, and feet in my mouth, and the sexy sweaty scents. I'm even so attracted to guys' voices!!!!! But to be fair, who isn't, especially when it's a big tough daddy's voice speaking softly... and gently in your ear. Which, again, I know the feeling well. I'm an ion cause I'm constantly, charged with a lot of sexual energy. I'm turned on almost all the time, which is a problem, because well, school. So, hopefully i can limit myself.

For the hobby side, I can say it has made me more interesting, and more broke. I mean, I went to Toronto BY MYSELF, and got to wrestle so many people. Who cares if I've been dominated, I got to dominate some people back. And if I want to keep doing this, I'm gonna have to better myself in terms of my education, and a future career. Because I need money, and I'll always need money. The feeling of working hard and getting the money is suhc a great feeling, and even better to have it to spend on hotel rooms to accomodate all the sexy out of towners. I'm gonna have to be more intersting too, especially since my first blog post made me sound a little like I was too sad.

It's hard to come up with things that are relatable when I'm not relatable to most people. I think differently on certain things, I feel differently on certain things, things regular people have problems with aren't a problem for me, but the things other people are fine with, I'm struggling with somewhat. But there's no point in feeling bad when I know I can do it, it just takes time. And the willpower to keep going. I don't stay sad for longer than a few hours anyways, so after I do feel bad, I'm good to go. And I think that's essential for me to move forward.

Did you guys know that the amygdala ( a part of the brain) does the things you typically think the heart does? It's the center for processing emotions, which makes sense, because the nervous system controls everything. It's logical. As for why we associate the heart with processing emotions, I think people aren't the best at managing their emotions, and when they ahve distress, its a physical response to let us know we need time to heal/rest. And also cause the heart is keeping us alive, and being alive means having emotions. I think, anyways, you could probably get a scientist to tell why. But anyways, while the amygdala proceses the emotions, the heart just sounds better. (Duh) So when I talk about the heart of an ion, I really mean the heart of a (champ)ion. Cause even though I don't get the wins, I can keep on moving forward and making progress, and not let adveristy get me down(Unless of course the adveristy is really hot, or muscled, or seductive, or knows my weak points).
Anyways, I've been more sleep deprived the whole time I've wrote this. Yeah, gee, sleeping for 8 hours when i need 9.5 is such sleep deprivation. So I'm gonna go take a nap or soemthing. I've completed my goal of letting out my personality. Thanks for reading guys, and I am absolutely ok. Well, as Ok as I can be with quizzes, assignments, idterms and finals. There's no reason I'd pretend to be alright when I'm not. I'll always have problems to deal with, but I always end up moving past them. You know, heart of a (champ) ion and all.

Hey foot fetish guys!

Would you guys prefer to see just foot worshipping or mixed in with the actual wrestling?

How kinky do you like your foot worship?

Sock gags? Mutual foot worship? Tying up with socks?

Please let me know what kind of foot content really Interests you guys! Cause done right, foot worship can be very sensual and absolutely orgasmic! Message me directly or respond here if you please!