Kevin_Nova's blog

 I normally wouldn’t make another  post so quick, because even to me , it sounds like I need attention /validation and that im feeling vulnerable/sad or whatever, but i do want to show I am confident that future me will be much better 

And also, thank you guys! It sounds like I’m just saying  these words - but I prefer to thank people through actions anyways, after my improvement is complete ill be able to thank you guys properly  

- that sounds very vague but idk what I’ll do later 

Yesterday, I vented about things I wanted to vent about for the longest time , and was mildly prepared to work on them 

What I didn’t expect was how supportive all you guys were - and now I’m very prepared to work on them and to fully resolve those issues 

I was very low on sleep yesterday too, but that was part of a continuing cycle of binge eating  sleep little and repeat and that cycle is something I need to wreck

Right now, I’m being the main character of a movie just after the -“call to action” or catalyst

And oh I need that redemption arc bad, which is what I’m working on 😂  

I really hope i don’t have blind faith in myself and that I’m actually working on some good ways to fix and improve myself to the point where I reach perfection, or at least my ideal self. 

The guy I want is to be that hunky guy that (cliche incoming) 

That lights up the room , 

and makes everyone feel safe/confident and want to fight me, and a strong conversationalist. 

But I do have an excessive amount of confidence and desire to change so I can be my ideal self - 

And damn it- I will fix myself and reach that highest level by the end of this year! Or beginning of next year ! 

By putting on a timeline I’m not adding unneeded pressure but really trying to make each day count 😃 

Thank you for taking the time to read this, i am grateful for all of you !