Kevin_Nova's blog

Life is all about change and sometimes some reinvention. It will all be good

Haha I’m trying to get that reinvention right now !

Thank you and I will
Make it all good 😃

You’re not being hard on yourself, but you could be kinder 😜

Think more about “improving” things, rather than “fixing” them! 👍🏼

Mindset matters 😊

Hehe well maybe being kinder isn’t a bad idea 😉

Some controlled kindness to myself would be good ,

As long as I don’t just let myself just be completely impulsive anyways

Kevin, you are still so young! You have so much time to figure it all out and you will continue learning about yourself.

It probably would be a good idea to dial back the kinky wrestling a bit and focus on your life outside of it a bit more. All of the wrestling hotties you know have complete separate lives outside of wrestling. And we are able to indulge in gay wrestling "because" of the things we do in our lives outside of wrestling. It's easy to forget just how niche this community actually is, now that the community has grown and organized so much. However, there is still an entire world out there that has nothing to do with this lol

I also want to mention that for the guys that have been in this community for a while, most us did not have all ""this"" when we were your age (by all this, I mean the huge growth of the community, all the different wrestlefests, the accessibility of gay wrestling, gay wrestling being on social media, wrestling content creation, etc.) I started doing this gay wrestling thing when I was like 18, and looking back, I was a cringey mess lol. But wrestling matches or even wrestling content wasn't as easily accessible for me, so I was able to focus on my life a bit more, and focus on Jiu-jitsu too. I still had matches once in a blue moon though of course.

Please continue your pursuit of Jiujitsu! Especially if you have an actual appreciation for the sport! I personally love jiu-jitsu so much, but my love and appreciation for it is completely separate from my appreciation of homoerotic wrestling. Jiu-jitsu will do so much for you, not just physically, but mentally and psychologically! And of course, it doesn't hurt that it'll help you dominate some jobbers too lol But jiu-jitsu requires discipline and consistency.

Honestly, let bjj be your personality for a while lol lots of practitioners make bjj their personalities tbh with how addicting it is.

And lastly, the homoerotic wrestling community isn't going anywhere and will always be here for when you do want to indulge. Good luck with BJJ and Grad school! Sorry for all the unsolicited advice haha

Haha no need to apologize to me about unsolicited advice, because any advice really helps and is in line with what I’m trying to do !

If I can even make a 90 degree change, it’ll make my life feel that much more interesting , and I’m trying to develop the other parts of myself too!

And I know I will do this in a few months -

You’ve motivated me even more ! 🤗

You're not alone! I am addressing most of those items - in one way or another. In a way, it's comforting to know that I'm not alone! Thank you for sharing.

Hehe thank you for listening!

I didn’t know this would be relatable to anyone actually, I just needed to vent

But it does help to know I’m not the only one!
🤗

You sound an awful lot like Holden Caufield.

Whattt????
Why???

I’m not gonna read catcher in the rye to get that reference 😂

You are not your thoughts, Kevin. Recognize that the ruminations of the mind are just that, In doing so - you will realize that the real you is the observer of the mind. Additionally ,when you recognize this internal chatter, it will dissipate and you will recognize it when it returns. Once you quiet the mind and see your thoughts from a higher perspective, you will enter the awareness of the present moment. The past is no longer here and the future does not exist, Stay aware and be at peace. Other ways to bring yourself into the present moment is by utilizing your senses especially as you walk. Identify the sounds you hear, the things you see, smell, feel and taste. This will lead to a profound inner peace.

Inner peace is when I’m being buried in between some hunk’s muscled thighs 😉

But I know what you mean, and now that I’ve had a good nights sleep- this chatter does seem to have quieted down .

Being fully present is something I will be able to do, after improving my own

And standing on a ladder to get a higher perspective 😉

So what I'm reading is that you accomplished your weight goal (good job) and found a new goal more oriented on your fat percentage, you had great fights during the summer to the point where you started liking it more and more and not only as a kink and you are figuring out other stuff that you need to work on in your private life. All in all, sounds like you have it under control and you know what you want to work on next, so - good luck. :)

Hehe this is my fav comment actually/

I was intending this to be something to vent but also stuff that I can improve on!

Thank you for the luck !

U got this, Kevin! <3 I think u looked super hot in Toronto this summer and I had so much fun hanging/wrestling with u again!!!