hephaestion2014's blog

So, had my first BJJ lesson the other day. 

After rolling with a few guys who are learning bjj, I felt I could do with getting some knowledge so I can hammer them.

My mate was going so invited me along for an introductory thing. 

 And I hated it.  

But I probably hated it for a lot of the reasons that most of you would enjoy it.

Everyone was really friendly and there was a genuine sense of camaraderie about them all.   

My mate often says that not only does it give him moves, fitness and mental health benefits.  

He has also picked up  "new bros"

That really put me off. 

 And that damn fist bump before each roll gave me the ick.

I'm not a team player. Actually that's not fair. I'm often told that on work reviews that I'm not a team player. 

Which again isn't fair, I'll do whatever I'm asked, or even what is needed without being asked and if someone is struggling, I'll slot in there and help.  

But I don't do the work group chat, I don't socialise outside or inside work- and to be honest, it's lucky we wear name badges or I'd genuinely not know anyone's name. 

It's not that I'm not a team player. I guess I just am not a people person.  If the connection ain't there, I can't fake it.

I think I'm in my villain phase 

It's why I gave up on Rugby as a kid. A

ll that team building really annoyed me and having to be with people I wouldn't chose to be with.

It's why I like combat sports. 

 Because it's just me. 

On my own. 

No team behind me. 

Even the thought of being in a tag team makes me feel trapped.  

So yeah, that wasn't for me. Tried it. Done it.  

Think I'll have to find an unfriendly gym or just learn on my own.

Or if anyone wants to teach me one on one lol